Another plateau!

I’m feeling stock and frustrated! Today I left my Pilates class with the sensation that I was walking like a duck. I would have thought that standing on my feet is the most natural thing I could do without thinking about and apparently I had been doing it wrong all my life. We did so many corrections on my feet “posture:” relax toes, find ball of the foot center, bring arch in, lower heels, rotate ankles, I had no idea that I could get a complete “feet” workout. Now my feet are sore, they even hurt, and I’m thinking about them way too much. I feel like a slow student whose teacher is wondering if I’m ever going to get it. I think that I just don’t feel good today and I’m in a rut, I feel stock. I’ve reached this new level where I can do a lot more than I’ve been able to in years but I don’t know how to handle it. Pilates is good for me because it’s pushing me to keep going and give the extra effort. I have this new strong and healthy body that I don’t know how to manage. I knew how to live with pain and now I have to learn how to live with my new improved self. The only thing missing is my image; in my head I feel like a thin person but I can’t move like one and the reflection in the mirror doesn’t look like one neither. Now that I have my exercise program down, I need to get serious about my diet!